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I am frustrated at myself. It seems that I can never do anything right, which I accepted. When I try to be a better me, it is all in vain and is shot down. No matter what I do, it is never enough or amounts to be enough... figures. I\'m like one big dark cloud of self loathe and piety. I do not wake up everyday and aim to be a failure, nor do I choose to be. It is like no matter the effort, I end up back to being just that. Like the decision was never even mines to begin with. My family does not really like me and I have like no friends. And when I do have friends, I either ruin that relationship by being me. I feel alone all the time and for lack of better words, trapped. I feel as if, I am not the real me. That the people know, is not who I am. I am not mental or anything, I am just annoyed with life. I am annoyed with people and more so myself. It is like I am dooming myself to the pathetic life I live. I tell myself I deserve whatever happens, especially the bad. I am a huge disappointment to so many people, including myself. Not even religion could help me, because I fail within that as well. It is like I chose to be a failure, which sounds insane, but it all seems so pointless. I feel beyond numb. I am just so frustrated.
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6/30/2015 at 1:21 PM
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It\'s okay to feel bad about yourself, but try to raise your self-esteem. Try to think of the stuff you are good at, no matter what it is, including making wierd noises with your mouth, being good at computer games, ANYTHING. I.t will make you feel better..