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I`m so frustrated about life i have a brother who is bi polar
who has emotional problems
(he`s 26 )
i live next to him i mean literally i share a room with him
(i`m 21)
it sucks because of the way he acts because of his condition i cant even sleep,eat,have company over because im afraid he`s going to blow a tantrum right infront of company and make things uncomfortable.
everytime any of us(my mother, brothers ,family etc) make any movements(walking,talking loudly,laughing,watching tv etc at home) My Bi polar brother gets up and starts blasting his music really loud and starts mumbling gibberish to everysong,if he`s not doing that he gets up and starts talking to himself in frustration and then starts screaming in anger(this has been going on for years)yes we have been trying to get him help but HE refuses,we try`d telling him in every possible way to stop acting that way be he still continues to do it just to get us upset ,im pissed and frustrated because it has effected my family and i BIG TIME,
we barley can concentrate on anything,especially me,i try holding it in like it doesnt effect me but it does ,since i have so much anger inside of me ,i take that attitude to work and around people, thats why i think i dont have no friends ,girlfriend because of it,im usually quiet around people and stuck in my own head most of the time which sucks ,people dont realize why i have this mean attitude but i think it mostly has to do for that particular reason,i dont feel free ,i feel trapped,i dont feel suicidal because i feel like thats the punk way to go,but i feel like screaming ,exploding like a ticking time bomb,all i want is a simple life,car people to hangout laugh with,travel,etc is that to much to ask for???
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