- Man, yeah, well, I guess that pretty much sums up how I am feeling. Self-loathing and despair, and I can't even be arsed to do this whole affirmation business, like I am now willing to open up to finding new ways, and I am now willing to open up to new and different ways of exploring life, because clearly I'm not willing to do either and I think writing out that shit is a great big waste of time and energy and I am seriously fucked off with having to do this shit called live my life. My life is full of broken hopes and dreams and I feel like there is no way out and I fucking hate everything and I fucking hate everything. I've got nothing good to say about anything at all, and I fucking hate everything. Like, supposedly, negativity is bad and I hate being negative, so why fucking create me so fucking negative God? Why create life in such a way, that it is so difficult to be positive and it is so easy to be negative? Why did you do that? What sort of stupid, fucked up shit is that? Feeling so negative about life it fucking sucks, it really fucking does and that just gets the cycle to keep going and to keep going and to keep going, and no wonder it is called a vicious cycle, because it is fucking vicious and malicious and really nasty and fucking horrible, and I'm like, why do that? Why fucking do that? Like, for example, when I was about 4 years old and I went into next door's garden and that woman from next door was really fucking horrible to me when I was just looking for my fucking football and I was a defenceless fucking 4 year old, why did you fucking create that woman to be so fucking horrible to me? Why? What the fuck is that about, that you create these fucking idiots who fuck up your fucking life so much? #272 — Comments (0) — 2/26/2013 at 3:13 PM — Life — I Feel You (1) — Get Over It (0)
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