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I hate being such a negative person inside my own head, it's like there is a constant voice of negativity. It feels like the devil constantly barking, it keeps me up at night, it makes me cry, it makes me hate myself and my surroundings and my family. You would never know this from the outside because I pretend to be happy, I pretend to laugh and I pretend to get over stuff that is hurting me, making me angry, telling me to quit and give up. I can't quiet this maniac in my mind, controlling me emotions and my will to be happy. I think I'm depressed. Yes, my circumstances are crap compared to where I thought they'd be at 30. I know that I'm better than letting my mind control me and getting on meds but it just won't stop! I've read the self help books, I know what I need to do to get my mind off of the unhappiness but the voices are overpowering me. I work out, I eat healthy, I go to church. Why won't' they stop. I'm turning my husband against me and I think I've already turned myself against me. What can I do to turn off this negativity. It's destroying me and eating me alive.

#175 — Comments (3) — 11/9/2012 at 5:31 PM — Life — I Feel You (9) — Get Over It (3)

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I understand and know how you feel i struggle with the same things as well. had a nice girl i met in college and she seemed to be just the type i wanted, funny, smart, sexy and into things i like(and i'm kinda nerdy) and i thought her to be the one to make me happy. But then i got negative and insecure and that just pushed her away. been trying since to stop being like that cuz now i know how much i loose when I'm negative. one thing i do know is that with everything that I have gone through & survive makes me stronger, so learn frm my mistakes focus on the good in ur life.
1/22/13
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join a support group as soon as you can nearest you
3/4/13
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I'm the same too. At least u managed to get married. I didn't perhaps bcos it is too overpowering for anyone to be with me when my mind is so negative and I dislike myself most days.

So appreciate your husband. At least he is there for u.
5/30/13

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